Today isn’t easy…

I went into this weekend planning on ignoring today. Ignoring that it was Father’s Day. In case you haven’t noticed, in a world of social media and technology that is almost impossible. I woke to see fathers plastered on every social media platform, and I can’t help but be jealous. Today isn’t easy.

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I’m appreciative of the messages I’ve gotten from my “stand-in” fathers today. Messages to remind me of how proud my Dad would be of me, how wonderful a woman I have grown up to be etc. I’m appreciative, but today still isn’t easy.

While I can personally relate to those who have lost a father. I am also reminded that not everyone has a good relationship with their father. I used to be someone to say: “Hey at least he is on this earth, you should make the best of it.”  But why? If someone has continually neglected you, wronged you, hurt you, why do they deserve your effort. Just because we have a holiday? I don’t think so. Just because someone is your “father” does not mean they deserve your attention today. There are bad father’s out there, and if you have one, you shouldn’t be forced to pretend that what they have done to you is okay. Despite your negative feelings toward your Dad, today might not be easy for you.

Today, without my earthly father here, I am thankful for my heavenly Father. The everlasting Father who gave the ultimate sacrifice so I could one day spend eternity with him, as well as my earthly Father. Oh He’s a good good Father. 

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What I’m Reading!

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I finished a book!

Pleasure reading in college can be a real challenge! I needed to carve out some designated me time, and after first semester, I knew it needed to be focused around Jesus. Before, quiet time just meant that I was reading a chapter or two in the Bible, maybe sorta kinda getting something out of it, and then saying a quick prayer before I went to sleep. One of the christian ministries I am apart of had a series on spiritual disciplines and it really helped me shape what my “quiet time” with the Lord currently looks like.
Soooooooo, I started reading the book The Circle Maker. The basis of the book is about Honi, a man in history who drew a circle in the dirt, stood inside of it, and prayed to God to make it rain during a horrible drought. Not only did God send rain, but he sent it exactly how Honi asked for it. The entire book uses this miracle as a way to illustrate how prayer circles are created and how prayer can be the most powerful tool we have as Christians.
Sometimes I think we forget how powerful prayer is. It is more than a few memorized lines said before dinner, it is direct communication to God! Just think about that. Referencing one of my past blog post, if you think of your relationship with God like you would with a significant other is helps create a picture of what your daily relationship should look like. You wouldn’t go multiple days without talking to your wife/husband, you wouldn’t only ask favors, you wouldn’t reach out in only the tough times. Right? Right,  because that would be a very unhealthy marriage. In our relationship with God, prayer is a way to grow close to Him, while simultaneously receiving unconditional love that is unlike anything you have ever experienced.
The book is separated into small stories within multiple chapters.  I read a few “stories” along with some typical scripture reading. Incorporating this book into my quiet time gave me tangible things to pray about and also expanded the amount of time I was spending in the presence of the Lord. I recommend this book to anyone who is looking to improve their prayer life, light a match in their walk with the Lord, or simply just need a new book to begin!
The second book in the picture is what I am reading next, I’ll be sure to share how I like it!

Timehop, Throwback Blogs, and Reflection

We all know what Timehop is right? The handy little app that shows you what you posted on various social media outlets, 1 year before, 2 years before, 3 years before, etc. Well this morning I found a few gems I thought I would share!

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I really decided to write this blog post because Timehop showed me a blog post I made on an older blog of mine that I thought I could reflect on. The post was titled: “…and it ended today” (clearly I’ve been doing that ellipses thing for a while.) Despite the really dramatic title, the post was about finishing my sophomore year of high school and because I just finished my second year of college it was kinda neat to come across this.


I have two main points in my original post that really illustrated to me that while I have grown up as a person, I am still the same Alysse I was back in high school.
  1.  My motto for the year of 2011: “Just keep swimming”. I hadn’t realized that declaring a motto for myself was something I have been doing for a while now. If you remember my post about Grey’s Anatomy, you will remember that this year I clung to the phrase ” I am the Sun.” At the time the “just keep swimming” phrase had to do with pushing through and realizing that my hard work would pay off when I was applying to college (it did). This year’s motto was a lot deeper than that. I’m sure getting into college was one of the most stressful things on my mind at the time, but it doesn’t compare to the stress I faced this past year. Basically, my purpose for “mottos” has continued, but they have evolved greatly in meaning.
  2. In my second point, I claimed that I would have given anything to be a graduating senior that year. I recognized that on the other hand I might miss out on some quality high school experiences if I magically had the chance to skip ahead 2 years. Then I ended it by saying that I was already missing out on experiences because I was always studying or at some athletic practice. I knew I was missing out and I didn’t care. During a lunch with my Christian mentor this year, we ended up talking about my high school experience and how different I am in that regard. In high school everything was about getting in to college, I stressed about the numbers, and would turn down many “fun” opportunities because i needed to study,  Now that I am college I have found the happy medium. I do my work, and I do well in school, but I also create/allow time to spend doing things that make me happy. I allow myself to realize that in the long run my friends who need me at 1am, or a spontaneous trip to McDonalds is not going to make or break my academic career.  Actually, in 20 years it’s probably what I will remember most from college.